The cycle had always been the same.

• Someone gets interested with me, pursues me then falls in love with me.
• I get attracted to him, and our relationship turns a step higher than friendship.
• We began to know how each one’s day turns out, and our day would not be complete without asking each other.
• Perhaps weekends or after work times are good times to meet and enjoy each other’s company.
• Then relationship turns sour. I began to long the good times that I had when the relationship started.
• We see less and less of each other. The person becomes wrapped up with other activities that occupy his time.
• Then, snap – the dreaded breakup!

The one that I fear so much because I always end up hurt, crying, angry. It is a sad depressing feeling that can go on for weeks, months and years!

Each breakup always puts a permanent scar on my heart. Even if I had been over past breakups, I still remember how painful it is to overcome each one. I have always found someone to love, feel loved in return, but eventually lose that person. Now I’m beginning to get tired.

These men had come and gone in my life. I’m beginning to wonder why I had this string of failed relationships before me. I could not count each one with my fingers because there had been a lot. After each one, I had always asked myself: What had gone wrong? What did I do to fail this one? Have I ever learned anything from those past relationships?

Or am I not meant to have someone to share the rest of my life with?